For years, many of you have asked about my family's ongoing experiences with Bigfoot when I was a child. The funny thing is, for years, I had been asking the same question of my mother.
In the late 1970's, we lived in the foothills of Mt. Rainier in Washington State. Our home was a small cabin nestled along the banks of the Carbon River. During the course of several years, my family and neighbors experienced ongoing encounters with large, hairy manlike creatures.
While I was a young girl at the time, I clearly remember certain events that occurred during that period: A red racer snake that hissed at me when I tried to pick him up (I went running into the house, terrified that he was on my heels), gathering termites from a large log on the path to feed the anoles - lizards - we kept in a glass cage, a sighting that my mother and I had while picking up sticks on the trail behind our house. There were two upright, hairy creatures standing near the path that day. I was little more than a toddler, but I remember the size of the creatures, the larger one's BIG eyes, and my mother's reaction. And wondering WHY she was so afraid of the Big Hairy People who apparently walked around in our back yard.
A box full of mystery... and a reluctant witness
When I was in my early teens, I discovered a box of letters my mother had written to a researcher about the events at the time and some photographs of footprints she'd found on the riverbed. The information contained within these files was but a brief snapshot of what occurred during those years. Passages in the letters alluded to other events which were not clearly documented within the articles in the box. I began to ask Mom questions about our years in Orting and she adamantly refused to talk about it. "We moved away from there to get away from what was happening. I've put it behind me and I want it to stay there."
Needless to say, all adolescents love a "Mystery" and that's exactly what this was. I thought, "If she won't talk about it, it MUST be good!" I continued to press her, sometimes gently, sometimes not, over the years. And she continued to refuse to tell me the details about what had happened.
By the time I was 16, the Mystery had consumed me. I had devoured every book on the subject and began going out into the field - hoping for my own encounters and interviewing others who'd had them. Still, no matter how many times I asked, Mom would not talk about Orting. She gave me the box of letters and photographs, probably in an attempt to shut me up, and they sat in my closet AND in the back of my mind. I would dig them out from time to time, searching for clues, for understanding.
The letters - a diary of sorts, really - bothered me. They contained references to things that were occasionally mentioned in other Bigfoot reports I'd read; things that were STRANGE and didn't fit what most researchers seemed to believe about the phenomenon. Most reports in the Bigfoot books I read by John Green, Rene Dahinden and others included brief, transient sightings of a creature crossing a road... It occurred to me that these witnesses had little opportunity to interact with the creatures as the letters indicated my family and neighbors had. I wondered if the reports included in these books were all there were, or whether the investigators and authors had simply shunned others who, like my family, claimed to experience ongoing encounters... had the authors simply refused to include their stories in the books due to their own incredulity?
What's logic got to do with it?
I began to read between the lines and kept my ear to the ground, searching for others who claimed similar experiences. And I found them. Apparently, there were people here and there around the country who told of ongoing encounters. And the fact that many of them recited certain details about the creatures' behavior that mimicked what was in my mother's letters gave me pause. The details of her encounters had never been published... heck, she wouldn't even talk to me about them... but here were other people describing similar events.
Years passed and I continued on my quest. I interviewed witnesses, paying particular attention to those "long-term witnesses" who claimed ongoing encounters. I spent time in the field and even returned several times to the old homestead in Orting... during which times I found evidence that the creatures were still around and experienced strange encounters of my own. All the while, the events in the 70's lingered in the back of my mind and I found myself frustrated by the fact that most researchers refused to consider even the possibility that long-term witnesses may posses valuable information. These witnesses were inevitably cast aside as "kooks" because they would relate details and experiences that didn't fit the mold of what the researchers themselves BELIEVED the bigfoot phenomenon to be.
Here's the trouble with this reasoning, as I understood it: most researchers would agree that if 20 incidental witnesses claimed to have seen different creatures cross the road, that each was in the neighborhood of 7-8' tall, hair covered, and usually some variation of brown or black, that the witnesses had likely seen something real and that one's story would corroborate another's. Therefore, that would be considered pretty compelling anecdotal evidence for the existence of bigfoot.
By the same token then, if several LTW'S (long-term witnesses) indicated that they had ongoing encounters, and that those encounters had consisted of X,Y, and Z... and these witnesses had NO contact with one another... wouldn't those stories corroborate one other as well? I was at least open to the possibility that they might.
But when I joined a listserve years ago and began to exchange these ideas with other researchers, I found that they were OFFENDED by the notion, and were quick to not only dismiss the witnesses, but ME for listening to them.
Wow.
Granted, it was likely difficult for these veteran researchers to take me seriously because I was young, female, and coming from a place most of them had never been... I was a witness myself, my family had obviously experienced SOMETHING strange, and having been a part of it I was blessed with an open-mindedness born of experience that none of the others seemed to possess. So I don't necessarily blame them for dismissing me OR my interests.
But it seemed to me that these researchers were busy chasing their tails. Following up on a transient road-crossing sighting, if you got there early enough, might net you a couple of footprints. But the creature was most likely on his or her way to somewhere, meaning not there, when you get there. Wouldn't it make more sense, I thought, to follow up with some of these witnesses who claimed that the creatures hung around near their residence for one reason or another? These people claimed to be HABITUATING these creatures. Why not check it out? What have you got to lose?
Well, I discovered what you had to lose... your CREDIBILITY with others in the research field. Apparently, my peers weren't ready for that kind of forward thinking, especially from a little whippet like me. So, rather than hanging around arguing with other researchers who refused to consider a different way of thinking, I left the listserve and did my own thing.
A different approach to the same old problem
I continued to work with LTWs. And, as a result, I've had some amazing experiences. I've seen some VERY compelling evidence that these witnesses really may have Bigfoot hanging out in their backyards on a fairly regular basis. And while these witnesses aren't as numerous as incidental ones, I feel that these are the IDEAL research scenarios... if a researcher can get over the idea that she may not win a popularity contest with her peers this week.
Now, on to the "stranger" side of these reports. What I found by interviewing LTWs is that many of them report other anomalies along with their Bigfoot encounters. Little lights in the trees. Underground rumblings. Lights in the sky. Gift exchanges (they leave food or items out for the creatures and receive natural items in return, sometimes displayed in a patterned formation). There are others, as well, that I won't go into here. What these witnesses describe is rather moot. The FACT that they are describing additional phenomena leads one to take a certain approach to these reports.
First, I've talked before about how eyewitness testimony, whether it's from an incidental or long-term witness, is SUBJECTIVE. But the problem that most researchers have with LTW testimony is that it's much more detailed and inclusive than that of incidental witnesses. Someone who reports a road-crossing may give details about color, height, maybe weight, the creature's gait... most researchers are comfortable with this information because it APPEARS objective and does not particularly offend anyone's sensibilities - unless, of course, the witness reports that the creature had bright pink hair and wore a tutu. <grin> But LTW information is usually much more detailed and often includes more subtle interactions. This is where it gets sticky. These witnesses tend to INTERPRET more, simply because they have more information available to them to interpret.
But just because a witness may interpret certain events based upon their own slant or dogma, it doesn't necessarily mean that they don't have Bigfoot creatures roaming around in their back yards at night. I'm simply not comfortable throwing the baby out with the bathwater.
As I researched LTWs, I began to develop a SKEPTICAL OPEN-MINDEDNESS. Logic suggested to me that there were several possibilities:
A) The witness was delusional and seeking attention - in which case I was still interested in exploring what personality type and motivations might cause someone to report these things in order to more easily identify them.
B) The witness was experiencing SOME of the things they claimed and interpreting the rest, creating correlations between the presence of Bigfoot creatures and other phenomena where there was none - in this case, I figured the witness STILL may have Bigfoot in their backyard and it was a great place to do some field work.
C) The witness was incredibly observant, was experiencing MULTIPLE phenomena, and Bigfoot might be a stranger critter than we give it credit for. If this was true, it would make itself apparent eventually - but only if I had the fortitude to research those scenarios which others wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole.
Don't believe it for a minute...
Now, let's get something straight: I didn't believe any of the witnesses I interviewed. Still don't.
Huh? That might stop a lot of you dead in your tracks. "Whaddaya mean, you don't believe them? Then why bother?"
Because I don't "believe" ANY witness. Eyewitnesses, whether reporting a road-crossing or an intricate interaction with a creature, will INTERPRET their encounters. And wholeheartedly believing a witnesses' subjective report throws your objectivity as a researcher right out the window. With any witness, I will examine the testimony, the supporting evidence, and come to a tentative conclusion about whether or not I feel the witness may be relating, interpreted in their own way, actual events that occurred... and whether those events may or may not be related to Bigfoot activity. This helps to determine whether or not I feel that there is value in conducting field research in an area.
Nor do I BELIEVE any one particular thing about the Bigfoot phenomenon. I've discussed this here before... BIGFOOT IS WHATEVER IT IS. It might be a garden-variety great ape, an animal, relatively stupid and unintelligent. It might be some sort of pre-human ancestor, gallivanting along on its own branch of our family tree. It might be something weirder than that. It might be smarter than us. The point is, I don't KNOW... and neither do you. But if you really want to know WHAT it is, at this early stage in the game you really have to allow yourself to keep an open mind and examine ALL of the evidence.
Remember I said earlier that many researchers avoid certain aspects of Bigfoot research because it doesn't fit in with what they BELIEVE bigfoot to be?
We differ in that respect. I don't CARE what Bigfoot is and I don't presume to know... I only hope to understand it in my lifetime.
I'm not a Satanist... are you?
Recently, one of those researchers from the old listserve referred to me as a "Paranormalist" because, early on, I had expressed an interest in understanding these odd reports.
The dictionary defines the suffix "-ist" as "One who follows a principal". It infers a specific belief system... like "Satanist". I explained that simply because I choose to investigate and explore the fact that people REPORT other strange phenomena in conjunction with Bigfoot sightings, it does not make me anything... other than a researcher who refuses to be so arrogant as to BELIEVE that they know what Bigfoot is and what it is not.
If you read Science and Health by Mary Baker Eddy in an attempt to understand what that belief system entails, does that automatically make you a "Christian Scientist"? If you read books about Satanic Cults in order to understand the beliefs and rituals, does that make you a "Satanist"?
Of course, the dictionary also states that it's "a member of a profession or one interested in something". Okay... I'll allow for that. But if you read a Stephen Hawking book, are you suddenly a "Quantum Physicist"? <grin> Let's see... following that line of logic, and the books I've read or topics I've studied, that would make me a "Psychologist", a "Biologist", a "Gynecologist"...
I don't appreciate being pigeonholed... especially when the intent is to discredit and stigmatize. See, the trouble is, real Paranormalists fervently BELIEVE that Bigfoot is "interdimensional" or "ethereal" or "spirit energy" or "a demon" or "an alien" or whatever and will argue the point with all the intensity of one devoted to a religious cause...
Unfortunately, people who have their own steadfast beliefs about Bigfoot have a hard time understanding that I DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING ABOUT THE NATURE OF SASQUATCH.
How different, really, are the "Flesh and Blood-ists"? <grin> They cling to a belief system as well... one that guides their actions and causes them to shun ANY report that even REMOTELY suggests that Bigfoot might be a "strange" phenomenon, rather than a plain-old biological animal running around in the woods. Nevermind the fact that the reports that might suggest otherwise are there and have been for years. And how are these reports handled? They're simply ignored in light of a more "scientific" approach to the subject.
Trouble is, any scientist will tell you that subjectively ignoring data from the get-go is a surefire way to ensure that your findings, and therefore your conclusions, are inaccurate. That's why I'm not comfortable simply dimissing these other types of reports.
For the record, I DO NOT BELONG TO EITHER CAMP. I am a... Researcher. I research. Period. I don't believe. I don't know. I wonder. I ponder. I question. Therefore, I research. Thoroughly. All aspects of the subject. With an open, AND THEREFORE TRULY SKEPTICAL AND OBJECTIVE, mind.
The pot calls the kettle ignorant....
Blanket dismissal of an idea in spite of evidence to the contrary, just because it makes you uncomfortable and doesn't fit with your "beliefs", is NOT skepticism. It's not science. It's religion.
Recently, on the Sci-Fi Investigates program that Skye and I were involved with, many researchers and laypersons alike were annoyed with Boston Rob Mariano because of his "skepticism". So was I. It wasn't skepticism. It was IGNORANCE and I told him so. He was confronted with evidence. He chose to IGNORE the evidence and maintain his "belief" that Bigfoot probably doesn't exist.
By the same token, there are anecdotal reports from eyewitnesses - also known as anecdotal evidence - that indicate that Bigfoot might be a little weirder than we think. You might not like it. But the FACT is, those reports are out there. LOTS of them. Many proudly self-proclaimed "Flesh and Blood" researchers aren't comfortable with this, so they tend to IGNORE those reports and DISMISS the witnesses. Sound familiar?
Let's read that again:
Blanket dismissal of an idea in spite of evidence to the contrary, just because it makes you uncomfortable and doesn't fit with your "beliefs", is NOT skepticism. It's not science. It's religion.
Hm.
Yet those same researchers grumble about those in the scientific community or general population who refuse to consider that Bigfoot even exists, despite evidence to the contrary. People like Boston Rob. Or Dr. Jeff Meldrum's associates.
It makes my head spin.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not a supporter of the idea that the Bigfoot phenomenon is "paranormal" and I certainly don't believe that it is. Remember? I HAVE NO BELIEFS ABOUT IT ONE WAY OR THE OTHER. I'm simply trying to point out the glaring double-standard held by many researchers and why it's irritating when others try to label and discredit me simply because I refuse to muddy up my thinking with their particular belief system. Flesh and Blood? Paranormal? No thanks. It's like the battle between Creation and Evolution. What if you don't buy either of them?
The difference between an idea and a belief is that I DON'T FEEL THE NEED TO DEFEND PARTICULAR IDEAS... only my right to have them, study them, and not be pigeonholed or bullied into someone else's belief system.
Separating the researcher from the witness
Recently, other researchers have begun to see the light; folks like Thom Powell, author of The Locals. I was thrilled to see Thom paying attention to these habituation scenarios and recognizing the potential value in them.
Several years ago, Mom began writing down all of the events that she remembered in Orting. I didn't know why she had changed her mind but I wasn't going to question it. This was a big deal to me... the Mystery was finally going to be revealed. :)
After I read the book, I understood why she didn't want to talk about it for all those years.
Mom's written several children's books and four novels but had never been published. She chose to write the story in book form, for my benefit, to explain what happened. It was never intended to be published. Three years ago or so, a publisher approached me, asking if I had a Bigfoot book available. I told him no, I hadn't written a book yet, wasn't sure I was going to... but my Mom had. He asked to see it. My mother is a wonderful writer, and I wasn't surprised when he said he wanted to publish it...
As nonfiction.
I began to have misgivings. The book tells the story, from Mom's perspective, of what happened when we lived in Orting. It's non-fiction, yes. But it's also a subjective account. I realized that I had worked a LONG 16 years to establish my credibility in the research field and, with the research community as dogmatic as it is about shunning LTWs and stories of the stranger side of Bigfoot, that credibility might very well take a nosedive when the book came out. I was concerned that my peers might not be able to separate me from my mother... the researcher from the witness. God knows they've had a hard enough time with it in the past.
So, just for the record:
I'm pleased that Mom's work is finally being published. She's a talented writer and her ability to take you there, in the moment, is truly a gift.
The book is a detailed example of a LTW situation. It describes specific events, behaviors and evidence. It is written by a witness and therefore also provides a classic demonstration of the challenges a researcher faces when separating fact from interpretation in a LTW case.
I'm aware that some people, particularly certain researchers, will be critical and I'm concerned about that. After all, this is my mom, I love her dearly and I'd hate to see her subjected to the type of ridicule heaped on other witnesses who have chosen to come forward. (And researchers wonder why witnesses are reluctant...)
Those who found this article enjoyable and are not personally offended by the notion of LTW encounters will GREATLY enjoy the book and may learn something from it. Those who felt this article hit a little too close to home will probably not... you'll find several things in the book to complain about, and I won't be surprised if you do so loudly and publicly.
However, please remember that this is not MY story. This is my MOTHER'S story, written from HER perspective. Mom is a witness. I am a researcher, an adult individual with experiences and a mind of my own that does not necessarily reflect those ideas or beliefs to which my mother subscribes. I do not "believe" it one way or another. I simply find it fascinating, and I examine it with the same objective open-mindedness that I maintain with other witnesses. While I was there and I remember some of the events, I was too young to fathom what was going on. Therefore, I cannot comment on my mother's interpretation of the events.
If you have questions about the book, you may contact her directly.
If you would like to order the book, you may print a mail-order form and send it directly to Mom.
Autumn Williams
October 30, 2006
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